My parents sometimes make me sad. They are going to move to San Gabriel to be closer to their church, but they are very bad at communicating with each other and have been arguing. My mom gets angry and my dad is bad at communicating and then my mom doesn’t talk to him. They sound verbally abusive toward each other. I mean…of course if one attacks the other person, you’d naturally feel defensive…but they constantly do that to each other…how do you think they are going to solve any problems by putting the other person down? It feels like they are ALWAYS arguing actually, not just about the move. I feel like if they didn’t call themselves Christian, they are no different from marriages that are toxic and falling apart. I don’t know why they can’t just try to be nice to each other. They are both sinful people and they don’t want to compromise. Sometimes, their marriage is a map for how I DON’T want my marriage to turn out. Maybe it’s just cuz they are in an argument that I’m saying this…they have good times too…but sometimes, I think their arguing is just a way of life for them. My mom probably takes comfort in friends and church more than her own husband. My dad has no one except her and has bad health…they frustrate me and I don’t really know how to help them.
Happy 2018! I’m 33 this year…wow, haven’t blogged for over 3 years! It’s been a while, but I’ll just get straight into it.
It’s hard to know what to blog about now since the days seem to bleed in together. I do 10,000 steps a day, I have a fulltime job, we go to church on Sundays, hike on Saturdays (sometimes), watch movies at night, etc. Why did I love blogging so much before? Did I really have so much to say? Do I really have nothing to say now? The hubby blogged about not knowing what he is passionate about, and I feel the same way. I mean, I love traveling.
This year alone, went to LA three times (going another three times…four if you count Irvine), and we also went to Chicago, Seattle, and Nashville (girl’s trip) this year. We helped my parents buy a condo last year, and I’ll be helping them permanently move there next week. It has made me partially think about renovating their house in order to rent it out and seriously start my dream for passive income…maybe that is what I want in life? Rather than having to work hard for money, have money work hard for ME! And honestly…I feel like I am not fit to do full time 40 hours/week work…I would rather do errands or cook or talk with close friends or travel.
I am always planning on when my next day off is and I try to take at least 2-3 days off a month. I know that is a customary want to have full time work, but…why do we have to be most people if we have been given the resources to survive and thrive? If we only have one life to live, you should glorify God in anything that you do. He never said that working full time IS necessary…if you do it, do it to the best of your ability…but what if full time work is just eating away at you? My back does not like sitting for so long and I don’t always like my work duties. I went into accounting because it’s stable…and another word for that is BORING. Not sure what God has in store for me, but I should probably try to be more active in making a change before my life just passes before my eyes.